rewind (dee: this is how i feel right now)

Jolin Tsai Dao Dai Translation

Song Title: Rewind

I had enough of what your so-called rrangements?
When will the uture?actually come?
You always wait until it too late to start telling me how cute I am.
I really want to rely on you but you were always not here.

I in a zone where I should be happy however you always give me nothing.
I along in the holidays and I can find someone to watch the ocean with me.
I always standing outside the door of happiness and I can not find the way in.
I cannot let go of the continuous heartbreaks you gave me.

# I finally realized that I cannot get the love back, but it too late when you realized it
You told me everything at the end, and you cried to ask me to stay.
I finally realized that I cannot get the love back; there are too many obstacles in front of us.
But you don want to let me go, you rather be disgraced and ask me don leave you.

You always want me to be good and play our future slowly.
But my tears kept falling down my cheek.
How are you going to be responsible for the past, the trust that you should have given me?
I am slowly pushed towards the cliff by you.

From the whiteness on my face, I see the memories are slowly gone.
The past sweetness between us keeps rewinding but I can no longer feel anything.
And the hope that I had in you, is broken by you over and over again.
The trust has broken up into too many pieces, how are we going to mend the pieces together and start over again?

sorry to be heavy, but heavy is the cost

i managed to go jogging with song on monday, which is an achievement really after my long 3 week hiatus from the gym. forced myself to not walk ad run the entire distance. i tend to have zero determination these days. bah.

met jess for lunch on tuesday. we had vietamese beef noodles down at viet deli at chevron house / change alley, one of the better viet places for beef noodles. didn't finish my meal. we were slacking for a bit at boat quay after over a glass of beer (i just had ice lemon tea, i didn't want to go back to office all red while my productivity level would just drop drastically.. but i had a few sips). she was supposed to study till i knocked off work at mac donalds and then we would both head to the gym at chevron house.

guess what? that didn't happen. we ended up at balcony bar at heeren. i downed 3 beers. had a grilled chicken for dinner. and was laughing my ass off with jess, marie and jiejie.

marie: "when i came out of my house, it was raining so i wear my red umbrella. then i realise it was only a drizzle, then i decided to switch it off'.

hah. or jess being late for lecture and creeping into her 8am class at 10am. the lecturer asked her why she was late. and she stood up like a meercat and said 'i don't know'. when she knew she had better excuses like 'the moon is not right, so i got up and prayed to the moon before i went to bed'. -laughs-

tonight i'm going to jog with song again. but perhaps i'm staying a bit later at work to clear up some backlogs. i've been procrastinating.

been away for a while.

so i've been away for a while.

it's been all good. apart from me growing fat... i'm still alive and well.

workload has been increasing so i have been staying back later than the usual 6 o'clock. hence, i blog a lot less or it becomes too personal that it has to go to livejournal.

my sister is coming back in november. that's cool. so is serene.

meeting nicholas next thursday for dinner. quite excited about it since it's been such a long time since we caught up.

have to go for my grandma's birthday dinner on next saturday. cousin invited me to some fashion show at zouk on friday but don't really think i'm keen to go. never heard of the local designer before for a brand called printemps or something.

H bought me grey's anatomy season 3 and the whole collection of ocean's 11 to ocean's 13. i forgot to tell him i wanted heroes. season 2 is awesome. i've also been watching season 4 of grey's anatomy and season 3 of prison break.

was at One Degree Fifteen yesterday (my second time there) for dinner and drinks. it's the yacht club at the marina, sentosa. then we went to IL Lido for champange. then to St James Powerstation for some mc callen. ended the night with chai chee bah chor mee.

this is a photo i took at IL Lido:

stuff has been quite complicating at work. not a big fan of office politics but i guess it's everywhere and we all have different working styles. i realised that integrity is very important in any trade. and without it, you can't gain the respect of your peers, superiors or even clients. anyway, i hope the issue is resolved soon.

Currently Listening Hey There Delilah By Plain White T's see related

drained

 the recent happenings have left me drained.

S has been picking fights with me. i also have to deal with some other things.

Prawn just came back from batam and he brought back a present for me. how sweet.

been gymming at parkway with Jess.  i must say, it's great to get that motivation back again. i've been procrastinating about gymming for a month. that's 60 bucks gone down the drain. i've been gymming since saturday, and it's awesome!

meeting her to gym after work tomorrow. so that i can look great on friday. we are headed for berlini room.

what happened last week:

monday - erm.. can't remember.

tuesday - the simpsons gala premiere with kaimin and serene. then off to loof for lychee martini (one for one)

wednesday - dinner with serene at marche then went for some drinks.

thursday - beer at sleazy joint.

friday - dinner with S.

here are some photos from brisbane outside my sister's rented apartment:

bro and i at the airport.

i love my skinny jeans/new shades/lv speedy/espirit knitted jacket.

*kiss kiss* mommay dearest.

awwwwww. look-a-likes.

and some other random photos from bbbc when MC Drift was around:

me attempting to dj once again.

me with the headphones. hur hur hur.

krabi

krabi was beautiful. especially the phi phi islands. here are some of the pictures:

 one of the beaches on phi phi island...

 one of the lagoons

 crystal clear water...

 erm... S and I. getting ready to snorkel.

bumblebee! fancy seeing a transformer car in krabi after the movie was just released.it's more orangy though.

tom yam. green curry. garlic pepper squid. yummmmmy.

it was an enjoyable trip :)